Theme song of my life right now. Perfectly sums up what I'm feeling and going through.

Why in the world did I think I could
Only get to know You when my life was good?
When everything just falls in place
The easiest thing is to give You praise
Now it all seems upside down

'Cause my whole world is caving in
But I feel You now more than I did then
How can I come to the end of me
And somehow still have all I need?
God, I want to know You more
Maybe this is how it starts
I find You when I fall apart

Blessed are the ones who understand 
We got nothing to bring but empty hands
Nothing to hide and nothing to prove
Our heartbreak brings us back to You 
And it all seems upside down 

I don't know how long this will last 
I'm praying for the pain to pass 
But maybe this is the best thing 
That has ever happened to me

I wanted to tell you everything that had happened
But I am lost for words
I tell everyone even myself that I'm fine
I'm alright
I've already moved on
But the truth is,
I'm still scared of what's to come
My mind's clouded
I can't think straight
Everything's a mess
My heart's badly broken
I am lost

It has been a year and I haven't reached my blogging goal yet. But like what they've always say, try and try until you succeed. So here I am again, doing my best to blog. I'm very indecisive on which blogging platform to choose. I made another Tumblr account at the start of the year in the hopes of being a better blogger. But alas, I'll always end up here. This year, let's see what will happen to this blog. Will it end up like this or will it turn out to be a success? I'm just hoping for the best.

Fiercely Yours,
Job

Random thingamajigs

I want to color my hair so so bad! I want to ombre-fy it! Like, I want to color the tips of my hair blonde.  Or maybe, just color it red. But I can't because of our school's strict implementation on hair policies. *brbsobbing*

I also want to learn how to do hair and make-up. But mostly on make-up. I so want to learn contouring and applying eyeshadow and other magical stuff you do with the eyes and lips. I already asked my friend, Rica, if she could teach me how and she gladly said yes! I'm so thrilled! Hope she'll be available next week! It's the start of her practicum, you see. Wish her sched would be good enough to allow us to meet.

I must get back to business! It's been quite a while since we've last released a collection on our online shop since we were pretty busy with our studies and I also had org to lead so my time was really eaten up with all that. But after our Finals this week, I'm really really eager to go back to business and sell stuffs. I'm planning to create some of the accessories that we would sell. Little by little, we'll get to that. There's a lot to learn and I'm willing to learn it on our sembreak. I'm so excited! Already doing bits of research on how to make some accessories especially necklaces and bracelets. Will test the waters first then will sell them if I could make good ones.

Two more Final exams left for me, by the way. Thermodynamics on Friday, then last but not the least, Digital Signals Processing on Saturday! After that, it's "Hello, Sembreak!" already! Yay. But first, I hafta study. These two are the toughest subjects for us this sem. So, wish me luck!

Distracted, Afraid and Excited

I should be focused on studying for our Final exams this week but here I am again distracted by everything non-academic related stuffs (e.g bloghopping and planning for the comeback of our online shop). I just couldn't help myself but browse through from one blog to another. I have to do great pa naman on our Finals or else I'd get low grades for this sem and my GWA might not make it on the cut. Yes, I'm that grade-conscious but lazy at the same time!

I guess I'm just really looking forward to our much awaited sembreak. Sometimes I don't care about what grades I'll get basta ba matapos na 'tong sem na 'to. But most of the time I'm scared of what I'll get because I know that it will be the grade I deserve. And by assessing my performance this sem, it doesn't look good. I was too lax, too chill pill..

I'm afraid but again I just really really want this sem to end. I have plans na for this sembreak. Work on our online shop, get my creative juices flowing, do some crafts, Volleyball training and plenty other thingamajigs. I'm also quite excited for second sem because it will be a fresh new start especially when it comes to my academics. I can never be too lax again. I have plans na rin for second sem. I plan to be active. Push every project I've think of for our org, join our college's Volleyball team and join our course's dance crew. I might do some extracurricular activities as well other than these so I'm really excited!

Finals, take it easy on me.